Tuesday 11 November 2008

Positives and Negatives








I hope you`ve all been having a nice day. I have to say today was much nicer than yesterday when we had torrential rain all day long. It was so bad that myself and a colleague were sent home early as we had nothing to do except watch the rain flood the garden centre, inside and out! I went to Tesco to buy Roman`s Christmas presents though it took me ages to get there. The roads were dreadful with deep puddles everywhere. I should have gone straight home but I wanted to get the shopping over with and I knew I was going to be busy every other day this week. I managed to buy some lovely toys for him and some clothes. Now all I have to do is wrap them all...that`s my least favourite part of Christmas, I`m rubbish at present wrapping...sigh.

This afternoon when I left work I drove straight into town and bought a few more presents. I was really tired and I did what I had to do them came home again. Mind you, after stopping for petrol and negotiating the school traffic I didn`t get home until 3.45 by which time I was starving hungry and really needed a cup of coffee. So I had lunch at 4pm when it was starting to get dark. Now it`s just after 5pm and it`s time to prepare my evening meal....hmm, I think I`ll wait a while...lol!


Tomorrow I`m going with Kerry, who by the way seems to be recovering from her tooth abcess, to a garage that has a diagnostic machine. She has a recurring problem with her car and nobody is sure whats causing the problem. Hopefully it will show up tomorrow and then she can get something done about it.
Remember the snow globe I bought Roman? Well it broke after he dropped it off the step. There were floods of tears and I told him that I`d by him another. I searched everywhere for one but eventually found one in the same shop that I`d bought the first one...should have gone there first!

When I got home today I emptied the washing machine, filled up the bird feeders (the greedy goldfinches are back in force and eating like they`ve never been fed before...lol!) Reloaded the machine, loaded the tumble dryer, made me a toasted sandwich and the longed-for coffee...I`m so glad to be sitting down now as my poor feet are throbbing.

Right, I had a letter from the hospital yesterday with the results of my recent routine mammogram. They want to see me again for more tests. That does sound ominous and even after reading the letter several times I`m still more than a little worried. Apparently after the tests I will been seen by a specialist who`ll talk me through the findings. So, this is how I`m coping with the fear that something could be wrong. I`m thinking the worst because I daren`t think otherwise. I don`t want to get my hopes up and then have them dashed. So if I`m one of the lucky ones I can be overjoyed when the time comes. At the moment I will think the worst. Jeannette rang me and we had a long chat yesterday. As she`s been through it herself she gave me good advice and reassurance and I felt so much better afterwards. So THANK YOU Jeannette dear friend, thank you very much. It`s so nice to have an understanding ear just a phone call away, it makes things seem that bit easier. So my appointment is Friday morning at 9.40 and I will be there for 2 hours, please think of me then.

Anyway, must away, I feel another coffee coming on...lol! Bye Bye for now and take care. :o)
















31 comments:

  1. Sandra you know that I will be thinking of you and praying for you and so will all your other friends on here. I am glad you are staying upbeat which is more than I managed to do.

    As for Christmas shopping I have not even thought about it, want to get my appointment out of the way first. Glad you were able to get Roman another snow globe.

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  2. P.S. There is no need to thank me. You know I will always be there for you. But it was nice of you.

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  3. Oh Sandra you are brave Christmas shopping and everying else whilst you have that hanging over your head ,I will be praying hard for you and yes of course I will think of you on Friday bless you dear friend ..love Jan xx

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  4. Awww I could have cried when I read about poor Roman dropping and breaking his snowglobe Sandra.Then when I read your news well I just had to pray for you instantly.The weather here has been appauling with very high winds and rain all day long and I always seem to think of people who have to drive around in it.Please take care tomorrrow whilst travelling and know you will be in my thoughts.I do hope Kerry gets her problem sorted with her car too.Happy to read Roman now has a replacement snow globe.Take Care God Bless Kath xx
    http://kath-mysimplerhymes2.blogspot.com/

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  5. Sandra I will be thinking about you Friday ~ I am so glad you had Jeannette to talk too and to ease your worries ~ glad Kerry is getting along OK and I hope they sort her car problem out for her ~ Poor Roman breaking his snow globe so happy you replaced it for him ~ Ally x

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  6. You will be in my prayers on the smoke dear friend. I can't imagine how frightened you must be at the moment. Keeping a positive attitude and an upbeat spirit is half the fight. Try not to worry much hon, it may not be as bad as you think. (Hugs)Indigo

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  7. I will be thinking of you friday. I have had so many friends called back and it has turned out to be nothing, i will be praying this will be the same for you.
    Jenny <><

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  8. Will be thinking of you and saying a wee prayer. Love Joan

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  9. Will be thinking of you on fri morning...Fingers crossed it is nothing untoward...I've never had a mammogram but i have had a scare in the past many years ago...So i can empathise a bit with how you're feeling...Luckily we've not had too much rain up here and don't want it either...Hope your Kerry manages to get to the bottom of her car problems and that it's not too expensive

    xxxx

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  10. Hope the results from the mammogram are nothing to worry about, Sandra, but certainly understand your apprehension. Keep us posted.

    Guido

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  11. Hi Sandra, My friend here in York had a very bad scare a couple of months ago. The doctor told her all sorts and when they "checked" her properly, they found out it was only a benign cist. So much scare for nothing. Be positive. Everything will be ok. I know what you feel. I'm waiting for the results of a CT scan I did last Saturday and I'm terrified. We must think positive

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  12. Hey there. You are always so good to get ahead of the game at Christmas. Oh, no that Roman broke his snow globe. That would have scared me. I know his granny will get him a new one. lol
    Oh I will say a little prayer for your next test. Try to not to worry until there is something more to worry about. Perhaps they did not get a good reading, or perhaps it is a false alarm.

    You all have a good rest of the week.
    Sonya

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  13. I'm glad you were able to replace Roman's new snow globe. I'm sure he was so heartbroken when it broke. That's such a special gift for a kid....actually for anyone. I love them.
    I am saying a prayer for you and will keep you in my prayers. Will think of you on Friday and will send you good thoughts. That's wonderful that you talked to Jeannette. I'm sure she was very comforting since she's been through so much herself. I wish you wouldn't think the worst though. It just might be that they need a better view...or it could be cysts which are benign. It could be anything. Don't make yourself sick with worrying please.
    Give that cute little Roman a hug for me.
    Hugs Pam

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  14. It goes without saying that I will be thinking of you on Friday. I will be praying that the news is good. Eileen x

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  15. I will certainly be praying for you on Friday, Sandra. I've had to go back again and have more thorough testing a couple of times. It was usually that they couldn't get a good reading and needed extra pictures from different angles. Poor Roman and his snowglobe. I'm glad you were able to replace it for him. xx

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  16. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts& prayers!

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  17. I will keep you close in my prayers...i have had 2 letters like that in my life...with mammograms, biopsies and ultrasounds afterwards to find out the cause. I pray you have no problems.
    I bet Roman is going to be so tickled with his new presents come Christmas! LOVE ya

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  18. Try not to worry too much. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  19. Remembering you this week. Peace be with you~Linda in Washington state

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  20. will have you in my thoughts & prayers re the tests the dr wants to do.
    keep us informed.
    please email me if i can help in anyway.
    huggies...

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  21. I'll be keeping you in my prayers! Have a good hump day tomorrow.

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  22. I am glad that you found Roman aonther snow globe. I will do more than think about you and this news Sandra. I will be sending up prayers for you. Hugs and love, Helen

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  23. Hi Sandra I shall be thinking and praying all will be well on Friday ,I had to have a routine Breast mammogram this morning at the local hospital in their mobile clinic.....love Jeanxx

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  24. Sandra Im thinking of you hunni. What a lovely friend Jeannette is. Bless her. So glad that you can chat to her!

    Crikey Ive not even started Christmas shopping this year! Cant think about it yet.
    Laine xxx
    http://lainey-lainesworld.blogspot.com/

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  25. Sandra, will be thinking of you Friday and hope and pray you get good news. Mags

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  26. Will keep sending lots of special thoughts your way.......

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  27. Oh goodness don't think badly yet. My best friend went through the same thing here with repeated visits and came to be nothing which kinda made me mad that they had her so worried and upset, but I guess it couldn't be helped. I will keep you in my thoughts on Friday. Poor baby broke his snow globe. I knew you would get him a new one fast. I need to go finish my shopping for Kyan soon.
    Take care, Chrissie

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  28. My dear Sandra... I will be thinking of you tomorrow, of course, along with everyone else here. Take care.
    xxx

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  29. Sandra, I'm so, so sorry I only just read this entry (15.30 Friday) so your test time ha gone by already. I'm thinking of you now though and hoping it al went well and that the news was not badf.

    love, Angie, xx

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  30. Just getting here to you to catch up...and see you had a test done...and need more...praying all goes well, and that you have updated..sure missed reading...got to catch up!!!
    Hugs and love,
    Joyce

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