Friday 23 January 2009

Pain and Analysis


Ouch....I fell down stairs a little while ago and now I`m starting to ache a bit. I was carry a bundle of washing and had almost reached the bottom stair when I tripped over a sleeping Jake. Well you should have heard the rumpus. I screamed out my best Anglo Saxon as I dived headlong and only saved myself by grabbling hold of the bookcase in the hall. Jake yelped and ran away as all the washing hit the floor. I wasn`t hurt at the time and I worried that I`d hurt Jake but it turned out he was more frightened of his crazy owner attacking him and throwing washing all over him...lol! Now my left ankle is a bit sore, my right thumb feels as though its come out of its socket and my shoulders feel as though they`ve been twisted, well they were actually but you know what I mean. It had been such a good day till then too. The weather had been appalling, windy with heavy rain all day but I was in a really good mood despite getting soaked several times at work.

Which brings me to a subject I`ve wanted to write about but kept deciding that I wouldn`t, until now. My good mood follows a week where I`ve been feeling really down. From time to time I feel really happy about life, elated almost without any particular reason. Then without exception I feel terribly depressed for a few days. I feel everyone dislikes me and are talking about me and I`m so tearful, its ridiculous. At least now I know that its not serious but have come to accept it for what it is. I`ve not really looked at it too deeply because I know I`ll feel better soon. I don`t know what causes it though I wonder if perhaps its a form of manic depression. Whatever it is its a part of me and just a cross that I have to bear...sigh.

I saw Kerry on Wednesday and we went shopping together which is something we do very little of these days. Her pregnancy is in its 30th week and all is well with her and the baby. Roman was in a lovely mood and whilst we were walking along the street inWindsor when he turned to me and said, "Nanna, I love you," So I said " Well I love you too darling," I was so happy I thought my heart would burst, bless him.

Bye Bye for now and have a lovely weekend. :o)

17 comments:

  1. Hi Sandra
    Hope you feel OK after your nasty fall, I am always falling over a dog! Glad you feel better this week I think feeling up and down is normal( I hope it is aanyway!).Roman sounds a real sweetie. xxxx

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  2. I hope you didn't do any really bad damage when you did that Sandra. I hope you feel better soon in all ways. That was so sweet in Roman to tell you that he loves you. Hugs, Helen

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  3. I do hope you are feeling better after your fall ,be careful my dear friend ,its a shock when you do something like that ,the shock is often worse than the fall so please take care cos I love you ,and Iknow lots of others do too ,I know that feeling though ,it is a form of depresion though ,please take good care of you ,you are rather special ya know ..love Ya Jan xx

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  4. Dear Sandra, I hope you feel better by now. I know that falls feel worse after a while so be careful and if you experience any more problems, please see you GP. The mood you were into last week is rather common to me and I think I've got PMT, as after I get my period I feel better. My GP says it because this is my (our) weaker period of the mounth and if you aren't fit it can affect your psyche and mood as well. He also says that it is usually a matter of some vitamins or elements deficiency (usually magnesium or potassium). I've been taking Magnesium OK for a while and I feel slightly better. A lot of psychological problems are caused by physical ones so do not authomatically think that you are depressed. It mioght be you lack of something "chemical". When you feel down think of something nice in your life, ie. Roman or your daughter or your future granddaughter or even look at some old pictures of places you've been and you felt happy to be. Or listen to some lovely music. Personally music helps me a lot. Lots of hugs. Have a nice weekend. Ciao. Antonella

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  5. Oh Sandra, I know the feeling regarding your fall. I lived in a house for 14 years & my washer & dryer were downstairs in the basement. More than once I stumbled going down that long stairway, grabbing onto the railing to keep from going all the way to the bottom. I finally started throwing the laundry down the stairs and then walking (without all that in my arms)safely down the stairs. I'm happy now to live on one floor with my washer & dryer close at hand. The depression you're feeling may be a hormonal imbalance~perhaps your doctor can help you. How sweet to hear "I love you" from a precious grandchild. Take care my friend...Linda in Washington state

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  6. I hate falls Sandra.I would see the doc if your aches continue.Poor Jake Aww I bet he wondered what the dickens was going on.The moods sound very much like depression bouts to me.Not very nice at all,I have been there plenty times .I do hope you soon feel much better.You are loved so don't worry about that.Nice to know you had a lovely day shopping with Keery and isn't it lovely when our Grandchildren tell us they love us.My Grandboys still do and they are 14 and 17 now along with a hug and a kiss, but joanna says they don't do it to her now LOL!! So I am soooo happy as you were.. Take Care God Bless Kath.xx

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  7. I know how you feel exactly and have felt that way MANY times in my life. I went to a doc and was told i have severe depression and i tried 3 different anti depressants. None of which worked and made things worse. That being said, can you go see a doctor? This may be menopause related and EASILY treated. I hate to think of you feeling sad or having a manic "high". I am also so sorry you fell....i hope everything that hurts heals quickly. Much love!!

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  8. Hang in there hon, the month of January tends to weigh us down after the frenzy of the holidays. Kids seem to know when to say just the right things when we need it.

    I hope you didn't hurt yourself too badly. With a small house, 4 cats and Pickles running around, I tend to trip constantly over one animal or another. I keep telling them they're not suppose to disable the food provider. (Hugs)Indigo

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  9. It could be hormone levels are not doing good. Ouch! I hope you are not too sore.

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  10. Oh, I hope you didn't hurt yourself as you tripped. It's such a shock to the system when we do something like that!

    I see many of your readers have suggested you see your doctor. I am going to suggest it, too. Have some blood work done to check your hormone levels and maybe your thyroid hormones. The depression is probably something that can be easily treated. It's common at our age.

    I love what Roman said to you. Don't grandchildren say the sweetest things? They know how to touch our hearts.

    Hugs, Kathy

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  11. Hi Sandra,we all love you very much ,so don't forget that.January is a month when we can feel down and depressed,hopefully the bad feeling will pass.What a lovely little boy Roman is to say he loves you,think you and him will always have a special relationship.Hope you are not hurt after your fall,certainly shakes you up....with love Jeanxxx

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  12. HOPE YOU HAVEN'T HURT YOURSELF..
    I UNDERSTAND THE MOOD SWINGS... I HAVE THEM TOO...:-(

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  13. Hope you are feeling better today after your fall. I remember falling downstairs on a tray that Richard aged 4 had left on the top step it is he one time I remember losing it with him the air was blue. It was a long time ago but it is still vivid. Poor Jake dogs get so frightened when something like that happens to there slumbers hope he is ok too. LOve Joan

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  14. I pray you are okay after that fall...been there done that many times...Bear parks his little body right on that third step before the bottom. This has been the worst month for mahy of us...but I know your strong...your
    going to get through this. Nice to read how Kerry's doing...always love hearing abour Roman...your little man...hugs and love,
    Joyce

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  15. I've fallen and tripped over our Grizzly several times. Most times he just looks confused but I'm the one with the aches. Glad you didn't really get injured.

    I know those mood swings. I used to be far worse when my hormones were flowing. It's possible that you have a touch of manic depression but it does seem mild and you do seem to have a good handle on it.

    That new baby is getting closer to arrive. Glad you had a good day with Kerry and Roman. xx Chris

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  16. Your mood swings sound more hormonal than manic! I don't know whether you are yet "of a certain age", but if you're getting that way it would be worth seeing your doc.

    Poor old Jake. Good job I go round on wheels mostly or else our Sal would be prmanently covered in rubbish and me flat on the floor. She is always flopping down right behind me. Just as people used to yell "Gardy loo" when they were about to empty their chamber pots out the window, so I have to yell "MIND SAL" before I turn a wheel.

    Hope you're feeling much better by now anyway.
    lots of love, Angie, xx

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  17. Hope you have no lingering pains from your fall and I hope your dark mood has passed. I understand where you are coming from, believe me. Eileen x

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